I remember being told as I was handed the bridesmaids dress for my brothers wedding, "This is the largest size they had." It was obvious that everyone around me knew it just wouldn't fit.
Squeezing into the dress, I was so grateful it was stretchy but still held back tears as I walked into the main room to show everyone waiting what it looked like.
I told everyone "I look like the girl on Willy Wonka that turned into the blueberry but instead I am a plum". Followed by an awkward silence and a few "oh no you don't".
I was determined to fit in it and look better in it, especially because this would be for wedding pictures where I would be the largest- once again compared to my small sisters. So of course I strictly dieted and continued to up my exercise routine only to get larger.
The day of the wedding, I again stuffed myself into the dress, only it was tighter than it had been before and felt like it was going to split in several spots. Feeling so hopeless and angry at my body, I smiled through pictures and being seen that day even though I just wanted to cry. (Left picture- 240lbs+ and over a year AFTER my 5th child was born)
Fast forward to now, after I stopped dieting and exercising and instead for the past 2 years worked on the emotional, spiritual, mental weight and loving myself and body more, this is the dress on me this morning, with so much extra fabric draping over my body! So fun to see the difference! Seeing how amazing my body was before carrying all that heavy burden and hurt, and then seeing how amazing my body has been through this transformation. Just amazing!
Your body is doing amazing things right now!
Are you ready to work on your emotional, spiritual and mental weight? I am here to help you with your transformation!
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