Being me

I realized today in my journaling that I don't talk a lot about what I am passionate about as much as I want because I fear being told I am annoying and told to shut up again.
I fear being too much, being rejected and abandoned again.
I fear being told "you're too loud and opinionated" again.
I heard it so much growing up

Even though I have worked on this and healed so much,
I still found myself hiding being ALL of me

I figured, if people want to know more, they will reach out.
I figured I would just hint things here and there and people would just know what I do and how I could help them, but I shouldn't talk too much about it to not overwhelm or irritate people.

But I know I don't want to be quiet about what I do and what I did to get where I am today!
I LOVE what I do and LOVE what I figured out and I LOVE telling others about it!
I could talk about it all day and night for years - just ask my kids and husband 

Josh

 lol

So, I decided today it is okay if people don't believe me because they are choosing to believe in what society and the tribe/family says.
It is okay if people think what I did and accomplished is too good to be true.
It is okay if people choose to think it's impossible and that I somehow faked it.

It's honestly not a lie, impossible, too good to be true, etc.
Otherwise I wouldn't be where I am today!

I am now choosing to let go of the responsibltiy
and pressure to get people to believe me.

Even though I am letting go of that,
I will not shut up about it
I will be LOUD about it
I will be PROUD of it
I will yell it from the rooftops if I need to

Because.....
There is another way
There is hope
There is healing
There is health and abundance

My life, relationships, bank account and most of all my body and health are proof of that

So while what I did may be too much for you to believe, just be open to the fact that it is a possibility