Choose to see and own your value now

I realized tonight in my journaling that I don't know what my purpose would be if I hadn't gone through what I had gone through. Would I be passionate about the things I am now if I never had those struggles?  What would I be doing if I never was 100+lbs overweight, never went through abuse, never had only a dollar to my name/bankruptcy, loss, and so much more that I have overcome?

It is interesting to think about!

I also wrote how so many people never valued me before all of this.
So many never gave me the time of day and how I don't think some people would have ever valued me like they do now if I didn't have those struggles. That some wouldn't value me if I didn't have the success I have had and if I didn't know how to help them.

Obviously this of course is super sad to think that way but it brought up a memory from last year when I felt this way when I was being taken advantage of by so many wanting free coaching and healings and being shamed for charging for my transformative work. 

One night, I still remember it like it was yesterday, I told Josh that I wanted to gain weight back and hide because setting boundaries were hard and I was only getting attacked. I said in tears that I almost could guarantee those people wouldn't look to me anymore if I just gained back the weight. That people would leave me alone and stop expecting things from me if they didn't value me anymore. And they wouldn't value me if I no longer had success.

Again, super sad but easy right? 

No! Not easy and obviously I didn't choose that after working through it.
It wouldn't have been so easy because the truth is, I would have hated myself if I would have sabotaged that extreme and I would have been miserable. 

So not worth it and tonight I am reminded how grateful I am that I held strong to those boundaries and kept moving forward. That I chose to see my value even if others didn't. 

BECAUSE the truth is......

I am of value because I always was. Everyone is. YOU are.

Even if others didn't find me of value before, I was always of value.

Even if others don't find what I say of value now, I know I am still of value.

And even though it makes me feel sad to think I might not be as passionate about the topics I am about today, and that people might not value me without my success like they value me today, I chose once again to let go of the unknown because there is no point in dwelling on it.

 

Plus I reminded myself once again after this came up, that expectations of others can suck it, because I choose what I share and give. I have every right to charge what I choose. To one person it's too much but so little to another. Whether I put a $1 price tag on it or put a million dollar price tag on it, I know it is worth more than any price out there I could think to put on it.

My story, my voice, my work is life changing and it is of value.

Always was, always is.
Struggle or success

ALL VALUABLE

I recommend declaring today with me
"I choose to see and own my value now!"

because YOU ARE OF VALUE no matter what!